And when it all falls down....

....you think it can't get any worse, but then something dumb happens over and over again.

• Well where do we start: happy friday to the readers of this blog. However it wasn't a happy friday for me. I went to the community college by me after a week of waiting for a week for my placement test results. Well all that was basically for nothing because they want me to take an entry level class instead of what I need to take for course credit to transfer to SIU. They were adamant about taking the pre-req which I thought was bullshit because that's what you give to an incoming freshman in college. I've graduated high school and I'm halfway through college. Yet they want me to take an entry level class like I'm some slow ass retard that would go to a community college because I'm obviously too dumb to take it. I don't even feel like making sense anymore. So that was bullshit. I have to wait til I get back into the country and have the head of the math department (who wasn't there, figures huh?) to sign me a release form to take the class I need. This is why the City Colleges of Chicago suck balls for a living.
• Right after that I got hit with the news that I wasn't going to the Cubs game Saturday. BOO!!! The lady sold the tickets to someone that wasn't my mom. I was really looking forward to going cuz C-Lo (SIU b-ball coach Chris Lowery) was gonna be singing the 7th inning stretch. Instead I might go shopping with mom tomorrow instead. Still looking for Cubs tickets for a mid-July game. Stupid yuppies buying all the tickets I need.
• RANDOM THOUGHT OF THE DAY: I was stuck in traffic on LSD (lake shore drive of course) and I had a bit of a revalation. By the way, I love my revelations. So I took a look out on the lake on a beautiful spring day. Took a look at the beautiful skyline and wondered to myself "why did I leave this place?" Seriously, Chicago is the greatest city in the world hands down without any doubts in my mind. I been to New York, it's a great city that brings out the best in me, but it ain't Chicago. I been to Vegas, which has been my second favorite place in the world and it's my getaway place and the place where I've had some of the best luck. All that said, LV doesn't hold a candle to Chicago. I've even been to Europe, I went to Barcelona in 1999 as part of an exchange program for school. I love that place too, but Europe just ain't for me. So as I thought about my travels I wondered why did I go to SIU-Carbondale, 6 hours away from wonderful Chicago. I wonder where I'd be had I not left. I think about the people I would have never met and the experiences I would have never had. I wonder if all of that would have been worth it by staying in Chicago. I am not gonna say that I regret going to SIU, but I can't help but think what could've been. Granted sometimes I think I'd be worse of now had I not ever gone to SIU. I'd probably still be stuck with a high school frame of mind....kinda like some other people I know that never left Chicago and I'd probably stuck chasing the same meaningless things I did before. I'm a changed man because of my experiences out of the city of Chi. But because the city brings out the best in me, I love it and appreciate it so much more than anyone ever really could.
• And of course the Cubs. Boy oh boy, the just keep finding new ways to lose. It's been nothing but bad since October 14th 2003. It's depressing. I'm convinced that it's a punshiment to be a Cubs fan. Being a die-hard like I am, I must have been overly pleasureable in my past life because being a Cub fan is just heart-break after heart-break in so many different ways. It's days like today and years like the last few that make me truly believe in curses. Good news is that Prior's got a start in Peoria soon and will be back. Then will be Wade Miller. Then eventually Derrek Lee. But it will all be too little too late.

It's Just A Little Crush...

...and some other stuff on my mind.

• And that crush I speak of is of course, well actually I have two crushes. I think anyone who read my last blog knows I have a bit of a thing for American Idol runner-up Katherine McPhee. However a bit of a newbie comes in the form of Nelly Furtado. I saw her new music video for her song "Promiscuous" and yeah wow, she got hot. I remember her from "Fly Like A Bird" and I thought she was cute but she definetly "whored" out in this video, very provocatively dresed. But yeah, I was sitting there watching the video and I was like "there's my new crush."
• Boring day in the city. I dunno what's weirer the boring city blogs because everything is relatively normal or those late night blogs from Carbondale in which it seems I'm losing my mind. Those are fun to write but not fun to see the next day when you wake up. No practice, I spent most of the day in bed out of pure laziness and I've spent most of my night in the basement waiting for laundry. Yawn, I know. This weekend should be fun, especially if I go to the mall tomorrow and I go to the Cubs game Saturday and oh yeah the trip to the PR.
• Oh I got a new favorite show on MTV. It's called "Why Can't I be You?" OR something to that extent. Basically there's someone who idolizes/admires/envies someone else from a distance and wants to be like them. Then they meet this person who they live with for 48 hours in an attempt to learn as much about what they envy and how they can make themselves more like. The episode I saw they had this nerdy kid who wanted to be like this guy who came into his restaurant with a bunch of hot girls every day. C'mon who isn't jealous of that guy? I know I am. In fact I find myself in that boat as we speak. If I could tell that kid one thing, it's to be yourself. Why would I say that? Well because I'm finally starting to take my own advice and it seems to be working. Remember that first impressions are key because they lead to proving or mis-proving predispositions a girl has about you. Learning as I go along.
• FINAL THOUGHTS: This might be my last blog until I get back from Puerto Rico, which I leave for on Sunday. So I'd like to take a moment and wish happy anniversary to two people that I know read this. Happy anniversary Kevicia. See it's been about six months since I put myself in a dilly of a pickle between my roommate and as I knew her back then as "the cute blonde across the hall." since then being around them has had its ups and downs but being the close friend in a relationship, it happens naturally. sure it has caused awkward moments, odd thoughts and sometimes a strain in the our friendships. but as i said, shit happens right? i don't know what else to say or what else i can say about this without saying something dumb. so i'll leave on that. happy anniversary you two.
• That's it I'm all out of thoughts for the night. Though I'll leave you as I hum Jennifer Paige's "It's Just A Little Crush..."

Happy Hump Day!

Today was so boring. I'm sorry today was a wasted day of nothingness. Got up early to try to sign up for summer school classes and my placement exam results aren't in yet because the english department hasn't read my BS of an essay. Then I drove my grandma around today, which was cool because I like spending time with grandma. I got back and watched the Cubs absolutely fall apart. It's an embarassment to be a Cubs fan these days, especially a die-hard like me who cares about the team and who's cared about the team more than anyone should for the last 19 years and on top of that I'm cynical like a 50 year old Cub fan at the ripe old age of 19. They're just causing me nothing but hell. Then we did a lil' softball practice. I played some less than average first base. I gotta work on my range going to my right. In my defense we were practicing on asphalt and the balls that got by I woulda been diving for. At the plate I took some practice swings and changed my approach on the plate. I tossed my old "load-and-unload" technique for a simpler lift and stride approach. For the first day I hit more line drives and I wasn't pulling everything down the 3rd base line. I gapped some today. It felt like it was a better swing too. I felt more balanced. We'll see how it works at practice tomorrow. I came back and ate dinner. It was yummy, I love me some home made food. I went downstairs to watch American Idol and Taylor won (BOO!) and I BOO! because I've been a Katherine fan since I laid eyes on her. She's friggin gorgeous. And has a great voice, I think she's on Kelly Clarkson's level if not better. She was definetly my idol. They showed the cute country girl from earlier episodes again. I blurted out "I'd hit that from here to whatever hick town she's from." I apologized after saying that cuz it was out of my character to say something that dumb. In more interesting news I scrapped my diet after a week. But I'm looking to get back on. It was tough last week cuz there was nothing to eat in my house except junk food. So my new plan is to cut out the pop, cut down on what I eat, drink more water and exercise more. I used the exercise bike today for a half hour today. I think a half hour a day will do me some good. I just want to look good. I figure if I look good I'll feel better about myself. I'm just looking to be happy. Sometimes I think that's asking for too much!

Short & Simple The Way Folks Like 'Em

I'm tired so I'll keep this quick and simple. It was an interesting day. After a day like today I feel like I mature a bit more as each day passes. I spent my day shadowing my sister at work seeing what she does and stuff like that. Now I know why she has no time for anyone cuz her work is hard and the people that work under her aren't geniuses by any stretch of the imagination. After seeing what those people do for a living, all that manual labor stuff, makes me wanna get a nice desk job somewhere. We also spent a lot of time catching up on stuff. Mostly my two years @ SIU which she knows little about because we never talk cuz she's always working. She gave me a nice lil' lecture today too. I love her lectures (well the ones I agree with at least). Those are tolerable. Well we talked about love, potential marriages, girls and stuff like that. I got a new perspective on it. Actually it was a re-hashed perspective that was eerily similar to something a real good friend has told me several times. It's just more believeable (not saying I don't put stock in the other person I do, in fact I value their opinion very highly) but it just sounded better coming from another outlet. It was more like a re-affirmation of my beliefs. Another good conversation I had was with my father this afternoon. Here's the gist of it. Use others' mistakes to guide you to your successes. Check. I've been doing that all my life with my friends. It's why one day I'll make an awesome boyfriend! LOL. Then he gave me marriage advice for some reason. I guess his step-daughter got married and he said that I should wait til I'm 35. I told him that marriage and having kids is the least of my concerns right now. However I won't deny that if that girl came along, I'd have to go with her. But as of now I guess I just have to live it fully.
That's it for tonight. Quick and painless. To an extent.