Sunday, December 11, 2005

Meaning Morning Thoughts and Other Things

Well, I stood strong last night with my decision not to go out drinking. I took the money I would have used to drink and I put it towards better things, like my gift for the Christmas party, the ingredients I need for the cheesecake I'm making for the Christmas party. I also bought some pop and some cookies as my finals week comfort food. Came back from Wal-Mart and realized most of my vodka was gone, so I sipped slow on what was left, and there still is a little left. I also took a walk to go get some food, get some fresh air and maybe clear my cluttered mind. That failed. I have recently been having dreams about my cars. First I had a dream about Putt Putt, my 1992 Ford Escort which I traded in for Sexy Purple Besty (recently renamed Lumi) my 1997 Chevy Lumina. I dreamed (in seperate dreams) that I somehow got them back. I miss my cars, I'd even settle for Putt Putt while I'm home for Christmas break. I'll be looking for something cheap and affordable when I go home since Jenny is being absolutely uncompromising when it comes to the Cadillac. Well, back to the unfullfilling walk in Carbondale. Well, what else is there to talk about, it was cold lonely and boring, granted I had Pods (my I-Pod) with me, it wasn't the same. Whenever I used to have things on my mind, I used to hop in my car and take a drive, whether it was the Escort or the Lumina, both had their things that cleared my mind. When I was in the Escort, I cruised the northside of the city, driving through some old stomping grounds like Lakeview and Wrigleyville and I drove around Lane. Doesn't seem like much, but I'd be driving and listening to the Score or some other radio station. Then when I had the Lumina, I upgraded to drives on Lake Shore Drive with my windows down and the radio cranked and me singing at the top of my lungs. I could have used one of those drives last night. I probably would have ended up in St. Louis, or maybe even in Champaign. Or I probably would've ended up by Crab Orchard Lake, maybe Fred's, I don't know. It would have been interesting, yet dangerous with the snow, slush and ice on the ground combined with the drunks out Saturday night. Maybe it was better that I didn't have a car to drive. I digress and return to the rest of the night. We watched some of Duke's of Hazzard and yeah Jessica Simpson's hot! That accent she has in the movie, she should keep it. However, she was hotter when she was more thick when she had the curves. That was a woman, granted she's still a woman now, but curves on a woman are hot! I'm still convinced the only people who like toothpicks are cheap motherfuckers who would skimp on the food budget. (just a joke ha ha!) I felt left out though cuz everyone else was drinking, so I decided to create a drink for me. In shot form it was a multi-alcohol shot consisting of vodka, amirito, rum and mad dog (some type of alcohol) with a splash of lemonade. I had about 6 of those, not a good idea, it'll get you buzzed really quickly, I think its the combination of alcohol that will get you to that point. So I felt better when folks were in here talking about experiences with the opposite sex as I sat idly on the sidelines listening intently to these stories because well, I had no stories so I just kept my pretty little mouth shut. So, I'm trying to piece together that part of the night. Oh yeah, there was a lot of love going my way, that's the thing I love about drunks, first of all they know me, I ran into four guys on my walk that I kinda knew or remembered which was cool that people remember me. Secondly, I'm loved by all when people are drunks, I get more "I love you's" when people are drunk than when they are sober. I guess that's bad, but hey, at least I was feelin some love right. It's funny how that goes. I gave my guy AL a nice little sob story about being single, but he kept my head up, gotta love them Chi-town boys we stick together, we really do. So as the night wore on, the couple as I am now affectionately calling them were acting couply and signs pointed more and more that she was staying in here tonight. Which kinda upset me beause I had the conversation with my roommate last night that it would make me uncomfortable, especially when she has a single room, but maybe they needed a change of scenery. All I know is that it was too reminiscent of what happened between me and my roommate (different roommate) last year when there was a girl in here every night all night and all morning when he could have easily gone to her room because her roommate was damn near living with her boyfriend. But I'm not gonna flip about this because this is only the first time, hopefully I won't be looking for weekend residence often next semester. Coulda been worse, he could still be with Becca and with her going to Edwardsville next semester and coming to see him every weekend, I would have needed to find somewhere to live every weekend. I dunno, this one hits close to home because well, my stupid feelings and my stupid mouth. I digress, so anyways....But I conceeded and made the great decision to leave the love birds alone in my room and I went to go find a home in the hub lounge like I did a lot last year. It was like having a flash back or something, it wasn't kind, but I ended up in this girls room down the hall, because she was still awake watching a movie and she has a single room so I figured the least I could do is ask if I could stay on her futon. I did, and granted the futon isn't the most comfortable thing in the world, its better than the embarassment I feel when I have to sleeping the hub lounge. I know what goes down in that place and yeah, who could forget the couple who fucked in the hub lounge last year. I just hope its been cleaned since then. I woke up this morning, no hangover (didn't have that much to drink, but I had a good amount for the little amount of time I was drinking) and as I told my guy Steve "It felt good to wake up in the room with a pretty girl and know whats going on." As a refrence from last year when I woke up in Schneider. Good times!!!!! Well, um, I think that's it for now, I had more thoughts last night that I might get at in my pre-finals post. Have a good day folks I'll hit it up later!

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